Beauty and the Beach

Sometimes walking the beach reminds me of how beautiful the world is, that it is not just full of ugliness. Something as peaceful as hearing the waves crash along the shoreline makes me reflect on my own life. I find myself in moments of depression and negativity, but every time I have been near the water, I have always felt at peace and I have always been content with who I am, I guess my love is the ocean because I like the person I am when I am breathing in the salty air and feeling the sand beneath my feet with the cold sea-water against my skin. I feel that my happiness is key and my problems mean nothing in retrospect to my life.

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Bless this drink! For all the days and nights it has kept me alive through the nights of torment as I studied for the treacheries of quizzes, presentations, speeches, exams and the worst of all Finals. Thanks Redbull! :)

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Trying to get a job and the struggles of the hunt are so ANNOYING! BUT, I have a job that isn't quite so bad! Yet! Making $10/hr surely makes it a little sweeter!

It's Crazy...

Right now I'm on some kind of overload. It's crazy, all the things on my mind. I think of things that I appreciate. Sometimes I'm stressed out over the things in my life. It's mostly the confusion I suppose. I need a release. To clear my mind. People don't realize what they have. When you have someone that says "Good Morning Beautiful" or "Good Night Gorgeous" that for me, is one of the most amazing things. It makes me feel so special. It's not often that someone understands how to make me happy. It's actually quite simple. I'm a simple person. With simple interests. I appreciate simple things. I like people that I can share that with. But why are those people so rare? No, I'm not in any way looking for love. It's just the way I see things. The truth is, I don't want to look for love. I know where to find it, but that will only be a painful thing. The simpler I keep my life, the better. Even though right now it's becoming complicated. Sometimes when you want your life to be a certain way, it almost never turns out how you want it. For me, I thought I may have found a person who could have been worth the risk of my heart but it didn't happen the way I had hoped. I'm already hurting, because I know that it will be impossible to hope for anything to happen with this person. He's incredible but (there is always a 'but')... he isn't going to be here much longer, I will only get hurt in the end. Part of me thinks I should talk to him about it, but the other part is telling me, forget about it. I guess I'll play it out and see where it goes... anything could happen!

I know my Fortune

Going to see a psychic, I wonder what my fortune will be! It is such a weird and interesting, yet fun thing to experience being told your life by a person who doesn't know you from a hole in the wall. Many have told me not to bother, because knowing how my life will go, may just be bad for me. Or maybe they meant it would be bad luck? Who really knows? I am not one to be superstitious but even I must say everything that the psychic said, could come true! Anything is possible!