It's Crazy...

Right now I'm on some kind of overload. It's crazy, all the things on my mind. I think of things that I appreciate. Sometimes I'm stressed out over the things in my life. It's mostly the confusion I suppose. I need a release. To clear my mind. People don't realize what they have. When you have someone that says "Good Morning Beautiful" or "Good Night Gorgeous" that for me, is one of the most amazing things. It makes me feel so special. It's not often that someone understands how to make me happy. It's actually quite simple. I'm a simple person. With simple interests. I appreciate simple things. I like people that I can share that with. But why are those people so rare? No, I'm not in any way looking for love. It's just the way I see things. The truth is, I don't want to look for love. I know where to find it, but that will only be a painful thing. The simpler I keep my life, the better. Even though right now it's becoming complicated. Sometimes when you want your life to be a certain way, it almost never turns out how you want it. For me, I thought I may have found a person who could have been worth the risk of my heart but it didn't happen the way I had hoped. I'm already hurting, because I know that it will be impossible to hope for anything to happen with this person. He's incredible but (there is always a 'but')... he isn't going to be here much longer, I will only get hurt in the end. Part of me thinks I should talk to him about it, but the other part is telling me, forget about it. I guess I'll play it out and see where it goes... anything could happen!